If you could spend a day in my mind you would see how much I care for people's feelings. You would understand how scared I am to offend someone or make them feel anything else but happy.
You could see how my heart has hurt more than it ever has in these past couple weeks. You would see that I don't value anyone's opinion about me. Which is both good and bad because if you hate me I really don't care but if you love me it will take me the longest time to realize it. You could easily see how I have trust issues.
You would see that I went to every dance I could during the 3 years of high school and can count on less than one hand how many times I was asked to dance.
You would see that I have absolutely no motivation to attend school anymore and it's not because of the school work or waking up early. I'm just too afraid to stand up for myself because I don't want to offend anyone even if it's the people that despise me.
I'm scared that I won't be able to find someone who cares about me as much as I care about them but I'll fall in love anyway.
You would see how my heart broke when I found out a crush on some boy was worth more than 3 years of friendship. Not just any friendship but best friends. We were best friends. You could see how that contributes to my trust issues.
But most of all you would see that happiness I feel for the little things every day. You would see how happy I get when someone gives me their time to talk. You would see how much little things like thunder or a hug mean to me. You would see that even on the worst day I have the ability to be happy and forget about my worries. You would see that I love everyone and that I'm so proud of the person I am.
Thank you to Paris and Nelson for providing a safe environment so I could be myself. I will be forever grateful for every single person in our class. You taught me how to get up in front of people and feel comfortable talking. I have learned so much more about myself this past year than I ever have and I think it has a lot to do with this class and the people in it. So this is me thanking you all.
With Love and Admiration,
Laine
